Hopefully, by the time future me is reading this you'll be graduating. I hope that senior year ended with a bang and made highschool the best 4 years of my life. There are a couple of things I have in mind now that I wanted to accomplish senior year which is road trip with the boys, DMT with hivansh, smoke a cigar in front of dean Clarke and spit in front of him (for the culture), and what probably defined my time in high school is Christina, bring back my relationship with her even if it means there are no feelings just get the sense of friends again. I also plan to make a memory with each of all my closest boys. Remember that McCulloughs research paper made you realize that you wanted to pursue a career in legalizing psychedelics or altering them to be used in therapy. Even if Ma or Papa don't agree with what I want to do fuck them I want to do something I actually want. But if for some reason you found a new passion I believe in you. Also bro you gotta stop looking on the past so heavily it's hindering you Christina will always be a part of you but that doesn't mean she has to hold you back. She hates you at the time I'm writing this btw like extremely. If there was one thing I could tell her even if it means I can't talk to her again is " I regret what I said on the voice message, I was pressured by Aldo to say that shit which I didn't even want to say this isn't an excuse I know what I said was fucked up. But every time I was thinking about you which is very frequently there was no doubt in my mind that I wanted to talk to you again and how well our connection was. I understand if what I said before destroyed the relationship we had and that's the reason why you don't want to talk to me anymore I'll live with the fact that it's over I just wish it wasn't." Remember that you and Mo made a deal to get back the ones you love which I hope happens. And you gotta start putting more emotions into things Christina wouldn't have done what she did if you actually got mad about what happened instead of letting her do that bc you found out why she actually did. Lol but now you're currently talking to Chiara idk if anything big is gonna happen with her I doubt it senior year man time to let loose. Dating feels hard when I think about it but there's eventually gonna be that one girl who won't make it feel hard. Remember don't be a sellout who loses all his friends for the money choose a career path that YOU actually like not Ma or Papa. As Youssef would like to say "You're too shaky with the fems that they need to take off the pants for you" I hope to change that by the end of senior year. I hope one day after highschool we can all get together and live life like the times we have now. Live in the moment not the future or the past. I've been thinking too much about my future that life has been going too quick. Remember cudi saves live and I believe in you.

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